August 04, 1998 which I do not evoke in my arrangement of « All the screams, the SOS », I had already hung on to life, yet I really had no reason to do that, as explained in the latter: "Against the past, there is nothing to do" !
I would like to add that this would really have been the most beautiful end, exactly like in most movies ... It's terrible that it did not happen, I let you watch the Second fall and Third time to better understand.
Without even doing more investigation for this helmet, I imagine that I had a 1 in 2 chance of dying and 3 in 4 chances of having at least one visible handicap ...
After having made a violent fall in VTT where I had suffered two severe cerebral shocks (an edema on the left and a frontal), I was transferred to the emergency departments of Sallanches where I had a Glasgow score of 4/15 as well as a blood clot that prevented me from being properly ventilated, the hospital staff thought that I was no longer breathing and therefore wanted to stop everything, which would ultimately have been more to assist someone in danger, I think.
To summarize this fall according to the only witness, I was unbalanced on the impulse of a jump, because my front wheel had loosened, then my head violently struck a tree and I would have passed out, here is the proof:

There is also the passage from an arrangement found much later which perfectly describes what had happened "It was winter" by Francis Cabrel with: "HE THINKED: I'm not going on anymore, what awaits me , I've already LIVED it, it's not worth it anymore..."
I really don't understand why I didn't notice sooner, well after these Daniel songs during 2016, when the latter is very close to what had happened during this fall with THINK, then after where I said it good.
In any case, to have passed out the shock must have been very strong, but I hadn't even moved and that's why I really don't know if I was unconscious or maybe it was my subconscious who was taking the hand. I had also mentioned these two ideas during my rehabilitation, but I was told of a tetanization, I frankly hard to believe, especially if I had been paralyzed I would never have let go of the handlebars so simply and I would have gone over it making a sun or an equivalent movement! In addition, when I mentioned this desire to end my life, I was not taken seriously and exactly the same thing happened as this passage of the report on the CIIVISE association.

*	Important to note, it is the very last version always better (no religious reference, no burial).

In any case, it is really difficult to understand, how I did not whiplash or not choke because of these torn teeth (the central incisors and the lower left lateral) ...
After 3 weeks spent at HUG (University Hospital of Geneva), I was going to rehabilitate in Alsace following an attempt to escape from the latter and the insurance that would stop paying the costs of hospitalization.
First of all I asked for a provisional braces being ashamed of these 3 missing teeth, well it was compulsory anyway not to have a dental deformation, on the other hand this caused a first problem bad breath.

Then, during a walk I saw a small black mark in my right eye, but it was brief and more means to see it again, so I was not careful.

Finally, I made the mistake of talking to my mother about this very old and bad memory that came back during the school holidays at the end of the 5th year, imagining that she would end up hearing it, since I had talked to my best friend.
After these reeducation sessions, I ended up going back home and it was from that moment that I became totally depressed, noting that I could not find my life before this accident ... New an old memory has just resurfaced and been confirmed, during these new rehabilitation sessions whether in Passy or Sallanches, I kept saying: "WHY CONTINUE".

No one helps you WITHOUT calling you Saïd or Mohamed

I only had one more I committed suicide and I kept asking my mother why she hadn't accepted that they shut down the machines at Sallanches hospital, more this thing mentioned above concerning the course of the fall.
I was also discovering this WASP album "The Crimson Idol" on the other hand, I don't know at all from when I discovered this famous last song « The great misconceptions of me » in which a passage evokes what had happened since this school trip.
To put an end to my days and stop this nightmare precisely, it was very simple, it was enough to jump from a cliff, but I imagined well how it would unfold, it was out of the question ... Not being able to sleep well one night in April or May I was even going to do a long bike ride with the one of August 4 repaired again hoping for a stroke of fate and this time much less chance of being rescued.
Another important thing that I forgot to specify even if I do not remember at all when it was, I took my pistol. marble that I had hidden under my bed, I loaded it with heavy marbles... After a long hesitation I gave up, I blame myself for not having on the trigger.
Then, I learned that there would be a total solar eclipse during the coming summer and that we would go to see it in the best place in Alsace, so I saw the way to stop this nightmare, I was impatiently awaiting it.
Meanwhile, the most surprising happened during a summer evening after the aperitif when a fly annoyed us and a friend had it trapped under a glass saying: "There it will eventually die" ... Once trapped I wanted one thing to finish like this fly, but I did not see how to do it, in addition, I believed that it was only with flies that it worked !!!
After that, came this long-awaited moment of the eclipse, but when the day came I ended up giving up looking at her without protective glasses noting that it would not help me to go blind anymore!

I must say that I did not realize the importance of such a gesture, I could not know that I would make exactly the same mistakes as younger, even worse with these memory disorders, finally I did not know either that 'there was a way to request euthanasia too, even if in France it was and it is still prohibited and my mother would not have accepted anyway. When I got home I thought more than one thing hanging myself, but I don't know why I was stuck on the rope and the knot! Once these great holidays ended, I took the road to college to redo this year of 4th without even noticing that there was still another terrible aftereffect ...
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H and S The h and the S would not have been necessary for the url, as you can see on the anim, I don't know why I didn't see him right away!